Danni-cj's a big SELFISH AND FAT LIAR!!Someone at Chemistry got pissed off at me because he didn't understand the lesson (probably chatting with his seatmate) and we had a seatwork. I found it easy since I was listening. And then I told him the instructions. He didn't get it so I told him to wait, because I'm not done with my work yet. It was already time so I made a beeline for it, and I wasn't able to teach him. He got pissed and told me I was selfish. i explained to him the reason but he didn't take it. He said words that made me think and made me cry. He said, "You hate friends who leave you out but your the one who leaves THEM OUT" and he never spoke to me for the whole day. After that scenarion, I almost cried at Geometry, and I wasn't able to focus on my work. (almost got a zero) And the fact that I saw my friends hugging after class, teasing each other making each other laugh....just wasn't helping. SO.......I'M A SELFISH HYPOCRITIC BASTARD? I'M A LIAR. AN ASSHOLE WHO LIKES TO WRITE AND HYPOCRITE EVERYTHING? I'm overreacting yes...but I can't just....ignore those words..it keeps repeating....I have friends at school but only.....VERY FEW. HE was included but not until now. He's also the vice president of the class and I can't help but follow orders.
I'm not used to opening up, but since 3rd year started i almost tell everyone what I feel. I felt relieved and belonging. NOW........NOW.....haha...I don't know what. I have 2 or 3 REAL FRIENDS. or four. Yeah. Conci, Erik, Jonah and Eunice. Eunice is by far the ONLY real friend I have in III-ST. CECILIA. I'm sick of it already...I don't even feel like going to school tomorrow. I'll be ignored anyway........not unless they need paper or answers from me.......
I have 2 ways to end this problem:
SHUT UP a.k.a. Be my old Loner self. I won't talk to anyone unless it's necessary except to my teachers or parents. Opening up will only be available to friends. CLOSE FRIENDS AND THIS DIARY.
or....pretend nothing happened...
this is a STUPID plan. I guarantee it won't work. But it's the only thing i can think of. Being a loner helps you think ya know.
*sigh* A month of classes and everything is starting to fall apart........
I wish, you guys were here. I never believed in wishes but it's really depressing when you try to walk to school alone. When you try to go down the halls alone while everyone is laughing with their bestiess. Jonah and Conci obviously aren't always available since they're in another class........Erik's TOO busy since he's a senior. I've got no one! NO ONE! *god, i'm crying again* I used to like being a loner but.....now things changed. I miss everyone. I miss Aguzz, Caity, Sophie, Angie, Cristy, Suzy, Nouky, Chiara, Alex, Emily and everyone here in dA!! :sigh: I need.....a friend.
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you're better off without them, trust me
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yes... you really need VERY close personal friends there..... but to get those kinds of friends you have to show them how you feel.... and it's alright to feel sad in these situations
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Listen to me: You are not selfish. If he was a real freind he'd understand that you needed to finish your work first, and he should learn from his mistake anyway! He needs to listen.
Seriously, you are not a selfish person, or a liar, or a hypocrite.
I've met people who are, and believe me, you are not
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sometimes I feel like that too.
And there's no reason to feel selfish, couldn't he ask the teacher? or someone else for help?, and you told him the truth, so you're not a liar!!
but hey lighten up and apologize with your friend, maybe that could work
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beacuse when death calls you down,
wisdome shall rise.
before you start reading: breathe. calm down. BREATHE. BREATHE. dont die okay? i dont want you to die, that would make me sad and .. well sad xD
you are not a liar.
you are not.
you are going through a hard part of your life, friends become the most important thing.
most ppl are left appart and finish traumatised with their experiences. and tahts NOT gonna be your case.
you have few but valuable friends, which is good.
you have friends outsiede school, online. that is also good.
if a friend needs you just and JUST JUST JUST to do stuff for them, then its not your real friend
have you heard me telling you to please do .. em.. manage my deviations and draw 56 stuffs for me and do my homework.. and THEN ttelling you im your friend??
NOWAI! friends are for ppl who LOVE EACH OTHER, CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER, LIKE EACH OTHER, AND REALLY LIKE BEING IWTH EACH OTHER AND HAVE FUN WITH EACH OTHER, AND WHO YOU CAN JUST SPEAK YOUR MIND WITHOUT BEING REJECTED!
i do love you, you are my friend. stop believeing waht everyone sais. its not true. that jerk *sorry if that offends you* does not know what he is talking about. the fact you couldnt help doesnt make you selfish! you cant live for everybody else! you have your own life!!
what you did was perfectly fine, so the guy is wrong not you..
dont go rub it in his face.
dont tell him
he should realize how STUPID it was what he did. and if he doesnt, well HIS problem.
talk more to erik, and yout other friends. organize moments out, hang out, have fun!
please
dont go down like this it worries me
PLEASE. dont .
be okay.
i hope you can find your way : )
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You aren't selfish, he's just a jerk who needs a brain.
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Oh god.. I wish i was there for you, i really do
I dont know what gives people the right to try and make you do stuff for them... just because you're smart and intelligent! You are in no way selfish! You're a good person and you were doing the right thing by standing up for yourself, when this guy was being a jerk. He doesnt deserve to be your friend, your too good for him
You know we all love you at dA but because of obvious reasons we can't easily see you and i know its hard being lonely...
You could try joining a club or something to make more friends, anything you're interested in? You're an awesome and lovely person so you should make some great friends
I know its not much but im here for you, and im thinking bout you. And so are so many of us here on deviantART. we all care about you.
I hope your okay, sweetie x
I havent talked to you in a while please come on msn soon i miss you
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Don't listen to that guy! He was just jealous that you're a genius! You can't be expected to do whatever he says when he says it. He's the one being selfish, not you!
And don't become a loner. I'm there right now in school, and it's not a fun place. Don't let that one person just take control of your life. You are a great person, don't ever forget that.
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The deed complete,
death freed.
At last conquering our fear.
This is the end.
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